By: Jennifer Murray

Keepin’ It Real Rewinds 08

If you are new to 4tunate, you might be new to KIRR (Keepin’ It Real Rewinds). I’m in the process of getting our story down on "paper", detailing our journey of infertility that led to an extreme high risk quadruplet pregnancy.  You can catch up on the Rewind Series HERE.

After finding out that we were positively pregnant, the two weeks that followed were pure bliss.  Although I knew my risk for miscarriage was elevated (due to my PCOS), it was a victory to know that my body was capable of becoming pregnant.  Regardless of whether we carried to a full term, I knew that God had granted our desire to become parents. We decided to keep the news between immediate family until our first ultrasound, and it was a joy to have such an intimate secret to share with loved ones. 

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During our two week wait we had several conversations involving the "what if" questions. What IF there’s more than one?  I purposefully tried to dismiss the idea of twins.  I desperately wanted children, so if that was God’s way of accomplishing that desire, then I knew He would give me the grace, but honestly, I thought twins would be overwhelming.  I wanted to be able to give individual attention to one baby, instead of being an attention drawing family.  Hilarious, right?  Brad in his naivety, envisioned all the positives of having twins and became partial to the idea.  Fourteen days couldn’t come quick enough…

The night before our first ultrasound, Brad and I went out of town for his cousins wedding. We celebrated the night together and with giddiness talked about our little "baby".

Singular.

However, the next day brought more than 1 surprise. Anxiously we gazed at the black and white screen as our nurse, Lisa scanned for a viable embryo. She was strangely and uncomfortably quiet as we waited for her to interpret what she was observing.  I vividly remember seeing what I thought was 2 sacks followed by silence that lingered for minutes. As I lay motionless on the table, Brad spoke up with, "What are you thinking, Lisa?" I’ll never forget her quiet reply.

"I’m still counting."

Panic swept over me.  Was this some kind of bad dream?  Was I going to be the breaking news story of the evening?  "Woman becomes pregnant with 17 babies". I thought of the McCaughey septuplets. I thought about our normal little life as we knew it. 

Lisa left the room to get my doctor.  I knew this wasn’t good news….

They were looking carefully at one of the sacks that appeared bigger and different than the others.  After examining it momentarily, they concluded that it was "just one".  I still didn’t know the total count. 

"How many then?" 

"Three." "Triplets."

Although I was completely shocked (especially after having a conservative cycle with "2" viable eggs), I couldn’t help but feel relief over the number 3.  Sure, this would be a higher risk pregnancy.  No, this wasn’t what I had in mind. But three isn’t that freakish of a number.

And I most certainly wouldn’t make the six o’clock news…

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1st Ultrasound August 7, 2006

"Triplets"

 

 

20 Responses to “Keepin’ It Real Rewinds 08”

  1. Heather
    January 8, 2009 at 4:16 pm #

    Wow. That’s just about all I can say, “Wow.”

  2. The McNulty Family
    January 8, 2009 at 7:41 pm #

    Oh Mama!!! I could have written this myself.. but as you know, after they found 3…. the fourth was just moments later. “PLEASE STOP COUNTING!”.. Conor and I said! WOW, you just took me back. I love you so much and I love your story.
    XOXO
    Gen

  3. Christine
    January 8, 2009 at 9:51 pm #

    I love your recaps.

    *insert cheesy music here*

    Getting to know you again, for the very first time.

    *music fades*

  4. Following HIM
    January 8, 2009 at 9:58 pm #

    WoW…three must be good…but your four are AMAZING and almost two!!!
    ~Elyse~

  5. 4 Little Men and Girly Twins
    January 8, 2009 at 10:01 pm #

    i love reading these! I can not imagine how surprised you were to hear 3 and then 4. I thought 2 was a big surprise! 🙂

    britt

  6. Veronica @ Luv My Quiver Full Of Arrows
    January 8, 2009 at 10:25 pm #

    Jen,

    I have been awaiting another KIRR!!! I love your candidness.

    xoxo, Veronica in CA
    p.s. I voted for you on the weblog awards! Go Murray’s!!

  7. Quad Squad!
    January 8, 2009 at 10:33 pm #

    Reading this gave me the chills! My first ultrasound experience was quite different, but the feelings are so much the same!

  8. Anonymous
    January 8, 2009 at 10:49 pm #

    Thanks for sharing this with us…I obviously don’t know you, but it gives me chills…especially being on this side of it and seeing FOUR beautiful HEALTHY perfect little boys!!!! The are PRECIOUS and God is so good!!! You are blessed beyond measure!

  9. Suzanne
    January 8, 2009 at 11:02 pm #

    lol…omg, i could have written exactly what gen said! totally took me back! i heard triplets…then two in the last sac. quads and just about flipped out! QUIT COUNTING!!! I DON’T WANT TO BE ON THE NEWS! i can’t imagine thinking triplets for a while and THEN finding the 4th! holy cow! LOVE the rewinds…love you!

  10. Anonymous
    January 9, 2009 at 12:42 am #

    I can trully only imagine the many emotions that followed after the excitement of just being pregnant…. than hearing the lady say, Im still counting…
    Boy, did God have a surprise for you…and Im not a bit surprised you are the couple chosen out of millions to be parents of quads… your story still amazes me. It trully is a miracle and I always walk away from reading these stories with my mouth open. Wow…
    I love God’s surprises…and I love how the storybook goes for the Murray couple…I cant wait for the next chapter, and the next…

    Keep up the fabulous job!!
    Heidi C., IN

  11. Jac Tubre
    January 9, 2009 at 8:03 am #

    Oh my goodness! I forgot for a moment that you thought you were having triplets for a while. I can’t imagine thinking triplets and then finding a 4th later…we saw all 4 the first ultrasound at 5 weeks so the shock was all at once. I guess little Brooks was hiding behind Clark 🙂 What an amazing story. Can’t wait for the next Rewind!

    Jac

  12. Mrs. Wilson
    January 9, 2009 at 9:55 am #

    You keep leaving me with a “Yah but what happens next?” thin going on. These KIRR posts are amazing! Totally a journey of what God did for you two (actually, you SIX). Thanks for sharing!

  13. Stephanie
    January 9, 2009 at 10:27 am #

    I love th KIRR posts..they are just amazing!
    Keep em coming please!! 🙂

  14. Laura
    January 9, 2009 at 11:10 am #

    Can’t wait for the next one. I was so shell shocked with my twins. I have no idea how you made it through just hearing about triplets. Especially because I know what was coming ahead, another baby and MOMO diagnosis. WOW! God is good.

  15. Hilary
    January 9, 2009 at 11:29 am #

    God and his great surprises!!

  16. Queen of pink in a house of blue
    January 9, 2009 at 1:30 pm #

    I love these and you always leave me thinking…o c’mon…what’s next! this time we know there were four, but i still can’t wait to hear the ‘rest of the story’!

    i have four boys, not all from one pregnancy though! big age differences in them!

  17. Anonymous
    January 9, 2009 at 4:18 pm #

    WOWWWW Jen…TRULY AMAZING….My heart would melt to see even 1 baby on that screen, but what a miracle to see (what was thought to be 3!!) and then 4!!! We serve an awesome, awesome God, don’t we?! -Sioby

  18. Classy Fab Sarah
    January 9, 2009 at 5:01 pm #

    I just wanted to suggest that you maybe have another reminder to vote in the weblog awards – you’re only 1 vote from taking the lead. Some people might not realize that you can vote daily, so a reminder might help put you on top!!

    Loving the rewinds!!

  19. Amy
    March 24, 2009 at 9:27 am #

    Hi, I just found your blog through links on About.com’s multiples newsletter. I’m a believer who has PCOS, took Clomid, and ended up with twin boys (now 11 weeks old). Just wanted to say I’m so blessed by reading your blog, and I can TOTALLY relate to this part! “I purposefully tried to dismiss the idea of twins. I desperately wanted children, so if that was God’s way of accomplishing that desire, then I knew He would give me the grace, but honestly, I thought twins would be overwhelming. I wanted to be able to give individual attention to one baby, instead of being an attention drawing family.” Sometimes God definitely has other plans, eh? 😉

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    October 17, 2009 at 1:54 pm #

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