By: Jennifer Murray

Keepin’ It Real Rewinds 06

Shortly after letting out my "Bahama Mama Braids", Brad and I made the decision to try one more round of the low-dose hormone treatments before going the adoption route. I’m not sure what to attribute it to (trusting God more, less nerves, prayer, timing, the idea of adoption) but the load seemed lighter this time.  Something about it seemed right. There was a silent confidence inside of me, yet I still remained overly reserved. Medically everything looked perfect, but our "chances" of getting pregnant (with one baby) were only estimated at about 30%.

July 21, 2006

I woke up before 5 am and no matter how hard I tried my eyelids would not close.  My blood draw was at 9am. Four LONG hours away.  I held out on taking a home pregnancy test, because I wanted the official medical results.  I also wanted to spare my heart from a false-positive, but now I couldn’t stand not knowing.  I woke Brad up and minutes later we were squinting at the instructions with sleepy eyes. I didn’t have to wait 3 minutes for the results, the plus sign appeared immediately. 

test

Did I need 2 plus signs for a positive or just one?  Two Slash Marks?  Did I do it right? Should I go out and buy another one? Hurry, figure it out before it disappears!

It was all so hard to process in the wee hours of the morning. Why didn’t I just get the one with the little indicator screen that spells it out plainly, "Pregnant/Not Pregnant"?

It was a "time stood still moment", with a celebration to follow. It wasn’t an all out celebration, because we still wanted the medical confirmation, but one that included hugging, crying, taking pictures in our pjs, and then yep, you better believe it, crawling back in bed.  (I repeat, I am NOT a morning person!)

After my blood draw, we meandered around Target and Barnes and Noble waiting for the much anticipated call from our nurse, Lisa. We contemplated creative ways to break the news to our parents to pass the time.  

A few hours later our phone conversation went something like this:

Nurse: We got the HSG counts back to confirm that you are pregnant!

(Insert screams, laughter, and a few million "Are you serious?" questions)

Nurse: Your counts are pretty high, though.

Me: What’s that mean? Am I really pregnant?

Nurse: Yeah, you’re really pregnant. It might be an indication of twins. It’s too early to know for certain, but it’s a possibility.  You’ll have your first ultrasound in 2 weeks and that will tell us more.

(Insert momentary silence)

Me: Twins?  But like no more than twins, right? (So nieve.)

Nurse: No, probably not. It could be just one, it’s just too early to know for certain. We’ll see you in 2 weeks!  Congratulations! 

I was gonna be a mama after all….

 

PS I posted twice today, so scroll down if you haven’t read my earlier entry.

 

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26 Responses to “Keepin’ It Real Rewinds 06”

  1. PletcherFamily
    October 27, 2008 at 6:25 pm #

    I love reading your rewinds about the babies since I started following your blog not so long ago! I can’t wait to hear about that ultrasound!! 🙂

  2. Amy
    October 27, 2008 at 6:43 pm #

    Thanks again for sharing! I am praying for the day I see a positive pregnancy test…all the God’s time.

  3. Tracie
    October 27, 2008 at 7:23 pm #

    Jen, I’ve been reading for a long time now (never posted!) and just had to let you know how moved I was by your post today. My husband and I have struggled with infertility and know the pain and heartache it can bring. Thank you for sharing your journey. I hope it gives hope and strengthens faith for those read it.

  4. Anonymous
    October 27, 2008 at 7:55 pm #

    Hi Jen!
    Thanks so much for sharing your inspiring story 🙂 It really helps my husband and I… We have been dealing with Fertility for 3 years.. Jsust found out last week we are pregnant… COunting down the days til the Ultrasound!!
    Just wondering thouhg, Will you post more rewinds, now that you have gotten to the pregnancy??
    Thanks, Jen!

    Susie

  5. Kerry Lynn
    October 27, 2008 at 8:37 pm #

    What was the number??

  6. Melissa
    October 27, 2008 at 8:42 pm #

    Jen, reading your rewind reminded me of the day I found out I was pg with my little miracle, 6 years in the making. I did the same thing, too a hpt the morning of my blood work, only to be shocked to see a positive test. My phone call with my infertlity nurse was very much the same (minus more than one baby!) Thanks for sharing!

  7. Kaitlyn
    October 27, 2008 at 9:13 pm #

    Wow, I’m loving your rewinds! 🙂

  8. Following HIM
    October 27, 2008 at 9:28 pm #

    I am so excited that you posted this today. Finally a POSITIVE post. You are so strong and I thank you for being so honest!
    ~Elyse~

  9. Melissa
    October 27, 2008 at 10:16 pm #

    I am a proud mama of twins after a long, terrible, haunting struggle with infertility. My boys are the light of my life and I remember every second of feeling like I would never be blessed with being a mom. As a read this latest installment of your “rewinds” I just had to comment, because you found out you were pregnant on the day my boys were born!! They weren’t due until September, but they were born two months prematurely and arrived, to finally make a mama out of me, on July 21, 2006! What a blessed day all around.

    Thanks for such a fantastic blog! Your sons are beautiful miracles, and it is a joy to be permitted to have these glimpses into the amazing family you and your husband have created.

  10. Jen Wilson
    October 27, 2008 at 10:16 pm #

    I forwarded your blog to a couple of my friends who are struggling with infertility. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

  11. Busy Momma
    October 27, 2008 at 10:45 pm #

    i have tears in my eyes over this. I didn’t have nearly the same struggles as you but that waiting for the results and not wanting to get hopes up until you were sure-I can relate.

  12. Moni Graf
    October 28, 2008 at 12:13 am #

    Jen, I could copy and paste this and make it my own (but I won’t :)! Right down to the “not being able to wait a few hours for the blood draw, so take a home pregnancy test first” thing. Even after the nurse told me how high my HCG levels were, I just knew we were having twins….yep, that sono a few weeks later proved me wrong in a BIG way. It’s hard to remember my life before quads and even harder to imagine my life without them.

    You’re doing a fantastic job on your rewinds. You truly are an AMAZING human being.

    Love ya!
    Moni

  13. Laura
    October 28, 2008 at 12:39 am #

    I really love reading your story! What a life changing moment. I, too, am touched by what a sweet faithful person you are. What a great example you are to me!

  14. Cyn
    October 28, 2008 at 1:49 am #

    Thanks for the rewind! It sounds much like our day of testing! Our test was on a Tuesday and I started taking taking my own on Saturday ~ yes, I still have them! Saturday’s Sunday’s Monday’s adn the doctor’s on Tuesday!! Mine all turned positive immediately! Yet somehow I was still filled with doubt until we got the “real” Medical confirmation on Tuesday! I loved the video of the boys picking up toys and dancing! I want ice cream at your house! 🙂

  15. Shelly
    October 28, 2008 at 8:13 am #

    eeee! This is so exciting…especially since I know how it ends!

  16. Williams' bunch
    October 28, 2008 at 11:28 am #

    That’s so funny…no more than twins… 🙂

  17. Anonymous
    October 28, 2008 at 11:52 am #

    This is pretty much exactly how my morning went the day we went in for our blood test. Woke up early, couldn’t go back to sleep, decided I HAD to know. Positive result immediately. The first positive result I have ever seen! Crying and celebrating, with my husband telling me it isn’t official until the doctor says it is. We were meandering around Linens and Things when we got the call. Our first ultrasound 2 weeks later revealed twins. Our second ultrasound 2 days afterwards revealed one more! We are 20 weeks along with triplets and couldn’t feel more blessed! Thank you for sharing!

  18. Jocelyn
    October 28, 2008 at 12:23 pm #

    This rewind was such a sweet and simple little story… but it brought tears to my eyes! Thanks for sharing!

  19. Hoping for our own Peanut
    October 28, 2008 at 3:36 pm #

    that positive sign must have been a sight for sore eyes. i wonder, when will i get one? perhaps after we go on vacation in november..tee-hee.

    your story is so helpful to everyone going through infertility treatments. thanks for sharing!

  20. Stephanie
    October 28, 2008 at 5:08 pm #

    I’m loving these rewinds. Thanks for sharing them.

  21. The Carlsons
    October 28, 2008 at 7:24 pm #

    i am like moni with you. i could’ve written the exact same thing. ha! my levels were sky high too and when the nurse said “multiples” i was like “hm, you sure?” yes, so naive 😉

    -fellow quad mom of GGGG and a 4yo boy

  22. Maggie
    October 28, 2008 at 9:05 pm #

    This post made me have chill bumps and tears in my eyes!! I can’t read what happens next (although I know)

  23. Rob & Lindsey
    October 28, 2008 at 9:17 pm #

    The picture of that positive test is awesome!!!! It is so awesome to see how your story unfolded!! I can’t wait to share my BFP with you and everyone else too:)

  24. jenn
    November 4, 2008 at 1:06 pm #

    i thank you for your rewind posts…we also are dealing with infertility issues, on a “break” now, trying to decide what our next move will be. reading your blog, and rewind posts, gives me continued hope…

  25. Anonymous
    January 8, 2009 at 10:02 pm #

    Thank you for sharing your story! My husband and I have been trying for almost four years. We were diagnosed last February as “unexplained infertility.” At the end of the month we’re going to do our first IUI. I know God has a plan for us and kid(s) are a part of it. Thanks again and God bless!

  26. Krystal
    November 14, 2011 at 10:26 am #

    I’m new to your blog so I started reading your rewinds to catch up. This one made me cry this morning! My husband and I have been trying for 2 years. They did discover some issues and we have been going on from there with some certain procedures.
    I’m currently in the dreaded 2 week waiting period. Ugh… I’m taking inspiration from your blog! Thanks!

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