Life After Loss

As much as I’d like to post something light and fluffy, perhaps a post about Hudson scaring himself with his own burps, or how Brooks and Clark have been writing some of the best narratives, or how Isaac scored 12 points at his last basketball game, or how Henry can’t get enough of Jedi Academy …

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Steps Forward

  Today I stepped back in the coffee shop I visited on the morning we got that Monday morning jaw-dropping positive surprise. I was able to walk in without tears, without anxiety, without heaviness, and without despair. This winter has been such a stark contrast to last. There’s sunshine where there was once darkness. There’s more …

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On Your Due Date…

Our Sweet Baby 5, Today was the day we marked on our calendar as the day you were due to be born – the end of the summer and what we thought would be the start of a an entirely new blessing. That wasn’t God’s plan for your life, and we’ve wrestled and submitted to …

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When the Ocean Calls…

During the long first quarter of 2014, I had this intense longing to run away.  I wanted to somehow escape the pain and the physical suffering, and bury everything that hurt. I knew it wasn’t the way to deal with trial and hardship, but  nevertheless, I desired it. I wanted desperately to see the ocean, …

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Finding Beauty In the Brokenness: Something Tangible {Giveaway}

One thing I really struggled with in the hard days of grieving over our loss, was that I had nothing tangible to remember this precious life with…yes, its days were much shorter than we desired, but they still COUNTED. There was LIFE that lived, and it shouldn’t be forgotten. I had kept myself from the …

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Finding Beauty in the Brokenness: The Everyday

  I’ve been upright for three days straight now, and still beyond thankful that I didn’t need another surgery to fix things. The fog is lifting, and I’m able to see clearer. Brad and I laid in bed talking last night about a lot of the pain we’ve walked through and how we are processing …

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the unknowns…

I’m not sure if you’ve figured this out about me yet, but I’m a planner.  I like to know what’s coming, and prepare for it accordingly.  Patience isn’t my spiritual gift.  I’m most comfortable with security in knowing what to expect, and I don’t think I’m the only one who feels this way… Last night …

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Finding Beauty in the Brokenness: Music

My life is a soundtrack. Ask my husband.  I have a song for almost any phrase, which I commonly burst into at any moment. I have a 6th sense of music – knowing the year it was released and what was happening in my life during that period. For instance some 80’s ballads are definite …

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