By: Jennifer Murray

Shaking Like a Leaf…


You may have noticed my absence around here.

We are wading through some very difficult days, and I’ve tried to think of how to write it out and how much to tell, and I just don’t have words yet.

My apologies for being so vague, but we appreciate your grace.

We are choosing to believe that God will use this for our good and for His glory, even though we can’t begin to make sense of it at all. Romans 8 reminds us that He can do just this, and that He is FOR US. Lord, help us walk by faith when we cannot see.

My sweet friend Emily sent me this song last night, and I burst into tears with how fitting the lyrics are right now.

“Hold Me Jesus” – Rich Mullins

Well, sometimes my life 
Just don’t make sense at all 
When the mountains look so big 
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark 
It’s so hot inside my soul 
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don’t come natural to me 
I’d rather fight You for something 
I don’t really want 
Than to take what You give that I need 
And I’ve beat my head against so many walls 
Now I’m falling down, I’m falling on my knees

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace…


Thank you for your prayers, and your constant encouragement in our lives, especially during this time when the blisters on our heart are so raw.




39 Responses to “Shaking Like a Leaf…”

  1. Crystal
    January 14, 2014 at 3:44 pm #

    I’ve always loved that song. Prayers of guidance and peace to you right now.
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  2. stacey thacker
    January 14, 2014 at 3:51 pm #

    Praying and singing with you!
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  3. Heather
    January 14, 2014 at 3:55 pm #

    Lord, I lift Jen up to you. Wrap her arms around her. Give her peace that passes understanding. Help her know You go before her and with her…You surround her and she is safely held. When her mind goes to places of fear and her eyes look at the waters crashing around her, help her to fix her gaze on you to believe she can even walk on water if you desire. Speak truth into her heart, whisper it gently in her ear. Provide in all the ways she needs your provision. Honor her obedience and faithfulness to You. In Jesus name, Amen. (((hugs from Dallas)))
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  4. Ashley Pichea
    January 14, 2014 at 3:56 pm #

    Praying for you, Jen. He’s got you.
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  5. Jessica Turner at The Mom Creative
    January 14, 2014 at 3:58 pm #

    You know that I have been praying for you. This song has ministered to me in trying times as well. We are with you, as is He. Peace.
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  6. Alicia
    January 14, 2014 at 4:09 pm #

    Praying for you, Jen!!! And your family.

  7. Elizabeth c
    January 14, 2014 at 4:16 pm #

    Praying for your family. I also found the song “nothing is wasted” to minister to me in very difficult times.

  8. Whitney English
    January 14, 2014 at 4:26 pm #

    Jennifer, thank you for sharing this. Praying for you.

  9. ohAmanda
    January 14, 2014 at 4:28 pm #

    Jen. Love you and won’t stop praying for you.

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  10. Amy
    January 14, 2014 at 4:49 pm #

    Keeping you in prayer.

  11. Chrisgharmon
    January 14, 2014 at 4:50 pm #

    Praying for you Jen. Whatever is going on, I pray God will give you peace and hope. xoxo
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  12. Dianne hands
    January 14, 2014 at 4:56 pm #

    Prayers for you and your family.

  13. Lisa~
    January 14, 2014 at 5:07 pm #

    Love you Jenn! Praying for you daily. <3 Lisa~
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  14. Kelli
    January 14, 2014 at 5:32 pm #

    Jen I am praying for you now. Big cyber hugs coming your way!
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  15. Erin @ Blue-Eyed Bride
    January 14, 2014 at 5:46 pm #

    Praying, Jenn. I pray that God will give you peace as you get through this and that His glory will be revealed. xo

  16. Malissa B
    January 14, 2014 at 6:06 pm #

    Praying for you and your family!

  17. Kelly from Kelly's Lucky You
    January 14, 2014 at 6:21 pm #

    Prayers for you and your family and sending you a giant HUG!

  18. mpt
    January 14, 2014 at 6:57 pm #

    Saying a prayer right now for you. May hope/healing come soon…

  19. Cherie from Queen of Free
    January 14, 2014 at 7:17 pm #

    Praying for you sweet friend. Whatever the need, no matter how great, you are not alone.
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  20. Myra @
    January 14, 2014 at 10:38 pm #

    Love you, my sweet friend. I’m praying so much for you. HUGS
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  21. Amanda
    January 14, 2014 at 11:37 pm #

    ((hugs)) I will be praying for you, for peace, guidance and comfort.
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  22. teresa
    January 14, 2014 at 11:57 pm #

    praying for you and your dear family. trusting God to provide grace, strength and courage In these days and peace & hope for your weary hearts. ((((((hugs)))))) and prayers

  23. Melissa
    January 15, 2014 at 12:45 am #

    Love, hugs and prayers!
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  24. gussy sews
    January 15, 2014 at 2:32 am #

    Oh Jen, wrapping you up in a peace that only He can provide. Love to you… cry it out… and don’t keep it bottled up. Praying you have a confidant nearby. XO

  25. Debra @ A Frugal Friend
    January 15, 2014 at 3:54 am #

    Hugs and Prayers through this time.
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  26. ERIKA
    January 15, 2014 at 6:59 am #

    Casting your care on HIM for HE cares for you

    1Peter 6:7

    Praying for you and your family.
    God bless

    Matthew 18:19

  27. Michele C
    January 15, 2014 at 1:17 pm #

    I am praying for you and your family.

  28. Richella Parham
    January 15, 2014 at 5:33 pm #

    Sweet Jen, I pray that God will provide everything you need: grace, comfort, wisdom. . . EVERYTHING! God bless you, dear one.
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  29. aubrey barela
    January 15, 2014 at 8:09 pm #

    Jen I am praying for you and your family. Praying for peace and clarity for you. Our family has also been going through a fair share of trials. Thank you for sharing this song. Singing it with you.

  30. Angie @ Just Like The Number
    January 15, 2014 at 10:11 pm #

    Dearest Jen, please know that you are surrounded in love and prayers. While I don’t presume to know what you are going through, I do know what it’s like to have something terrible weighing on your heart and not be able to share it openly. I hope sunnier days are just around the corner.
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  31. Debbie
    January 16, 2014 at 3:37 am #

    Praying for you and your beautiful family. God holds you all in His hand…

  32. sl
    January 18, 2014 at 2:10 am #

    Praying for you and your family. Love the song you shared.

  33. Rachel
    January 20, 2014 at 4:17 am #

    Praying for you. I’ve been following your blog for years. Praying for peace and God’s favor for you during this time.

  34. Amy-Jo
    January 20, 2014 at 3:09 pm #

    Prayers for you and your family for guidance and strength for whatever trials you may be going through.

  35. Ari
    January 20, 2014 at 6:13 pm #

    Praying. xoxo
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  36. Pam Johnston
    January 20, 2014 at 9:07 pm #

    Keeping you and your beautiful family in my thoughts and prayers.

  37. Mel
    January 21, 2014 at 4:36 pm #

    Lifting you up in prayer!

  38. Theresa
    January 21, 2014 at 9:14 pm #

    Praying for your amazing family, Jen!
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  39. Melissa
    January 23, 2014 at 9:30 pm #

    Praying for you and whatever burdens you are facing right now! He is right there beside you!
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