By: Jennifer Murray

Life.

heart rate monitor My Friday night and early hours of Saturday morning were spent in the ER with very scary and unsettling symptoms. Brad and the boys returned from some dear friends house Friday evening to find me on the couch feeling down right awful.  I felt out of body, dizzy, tingly, nauseated, my chest was tight, and I was disoriented.  As the hour continued I felt continually worse.  I felt as if I would loose consciousness at any moment and I was fighting panic.

Nothing explained my symptoms – I hadn’t taken any new medications in the last 24 hours, I wasn’t running a fever… My body just felt like it was on shut down mode, and I was completely out of control.

I asked Brad to call someone over to watch the boys and to call an ambulance.  I wanted to know my vitals before Brad took off with me in route to the hospital.  I was relieved to find out that my oxygen, BP, and heart rate were within normal limits, even though I felt like I was struggling for each breath. 

The ER was a blur. They ran several tests, started an IV, completed an EKG, and gave me valium for the symptoms. I then went to get a chest CT to check for blood clots and blew 2 IVs. All the while, I was still filled with fear, even though I knew that I was in great hands. The ER doc and my nurse at St. Vincent Carmel were WONDERFUL – compassionate, thorough, and on it.

As we awaited the results of multiple tests, I fumbled to put my thoughts into a prayer. The Author and Sustainer of life already knew my results – this was not a shock or surprise to Him.  My every breath is timed and orchestrated through Him, yet how often I forget His sovereignty over my life!

Praise Him, everything came back normal.  Although that didn’t explain my scary symptoms, I was so overjoyed that I was not facing something life-threatening.  The only explanation they could reason was a drug reaction to some anti-nausea meds I had taken the day before, most likely in combination with the trauma my body had endured the past couple of weeks.

I cried tears of joy and my nurse praised God and celebrated the good results with us.

This recovery isn’t going as I had “planned”, but it has had a valuable impact in my walk with Christ. He is showing me daily that He is enough, He is in control, He is my strength, and His grace is sufficient.

Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
And all that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me.
~ Shane and Shane

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15 Responses to “Life.”

  1. AmazingGreis
    June 14, 2011 at 1:13 pm #

    So, so glad that everything came back ok and that you are OK!!

    Will be keeping you all in my thoughts as you continue to recover and heal!

    XOXO

  2. Myra @ My Blessed Life
    June 14, 2011 at 1:30 pm #

    My sweet friend, I’m so glad you are okay. Love you and praying for full recovery. 🙂

  3. Lauren Green
    June 14, 2011 at 1:46 pm #

    I am SO glad to hear you are ok. I’m sorry that happened to you; it does sound so scary! Your strength and faith amazes me and I strive to have that kind of faith. You are an inspiration.

  4. Kelly
    June 14, 2011 at 1:57 pm #

    What med was it? Reglan made me feel all of those things once before. I refuse to take it!

  5. HEather L.
    June 14, 2011 at 2:02 pm #

    I am so sorry that recovery is still not going very smooth! How scary to have all that happen. I’m so glad that nothing major was wrong, and hope that it doesn’t happen again. Will keep praying for all of you.

  6. Debbie
    June 14, 2011 at 2:35 pm #

    Keeping you and yours in prayers…

  7. Holly
    June 14, 2011 at 5:59 pm #

    I’m so glad you’re okay. And I’m so grateful that God led you to call the ambulance when you needed it. That must have been so scary, and I’m glad you were in good hands at the hospital! Keeping you in my prayers.

  8. Kate
    June 14, 2011 at 6:43 pm #

    GAH! You just made me cry. Your perspective is so inspiring. SO thankful God is sustaining you!!

    Love you friend, xoxoxox

  9. Kathy @ House of Hills
    June 14, 2011 at 9:52 pm #

    Oh sweetie… tears…
    Praising God with you!
    Many hugs!

  10. Barbara Manatee
    June 14, 2011 at 10:48 pm #

    So glad you were in good hands and everything was ok in the end. How scary! Hoping the week ahead is a better one!

  11. mom taxi julie
    June 15, 2011 at 12:47 am #

    I hope they are right and you turn the corner soon ((hugs))

  12. Leigh
    June 15, 2011 at 2:03 am #

    Jen, I’m so sorry you had to go thru that! It must have been horrible. I’m so glad everything came back clear. I can’t imagine the recovery you must be going through. Although I’m so glad that you are going to Him for grace. He is sufficient and will always help us find our way.
    (((Hugs)))

  13. Angie @ Just Like The Number
    June 15, 2011 at 7:06 am #

    Wow, that must have been scary. I don’t know about Brad, but I know Mike would have been panicking right along with me. I’m so glad everything was okay in the end, and that you’re feeling better. It was so good to see you yesterday, and I hope that each day you feel better and stronger.

  14. Kelly from Kelly's Lucky You
    June 15, 2011 at 9:26 am #

    Whew! So glad you are okay and praying that things ease soon.

    You are one of the strongest, dearest people I’ve ever met and I’m so proud to know you. There were so many amazing things about DisneySMMoms and one of the best was meeting you. 🙂

    Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

  15. Sharren
    June 21, 2011 at 7:19 pm #

    I was just reading all my blog updates on the ones I follow and stumbled on this. I am so sorry you have been having medical scares. We miss seeing you guys and hope that all things return to “normal” as much as possible very soon!

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