By: Jennifer Murray

My Son Clark

The picture above illustrates what I thought the first time I saw David Cook of American Idol on my TV screen. As soon as I saw this guy’s hair, I thought, “what a mess”, then I thought, “hey, he looks like Clark!” What do you think? This was the best messed up hair picture of Clark we had, but I am telling you, they bear a strange resemblance when Clark first wakes up in the morning. Time for a haircut Clark!

Clark made an especially miraculous entry into our world almost 16 months ago. I can vividly remember watching for him to be delivered. Henry and Brooks had already been born, and Clark was right on his heals. Since Brooks and Clark shared an amniotic and chorionic sack, they were almost born together. We were worried about Brooks and Clark the entire pregnancy due to the fact that they were a rare form of identical twins known medically as monoamniotic twins. (Click here for a detailed explaination of monoamniotic twins)

Due to this complication, I was very anxious to see just how tangled Brooks’ and Clark’s cords would be. Miraculously, after 8 months of development without anything separating them from becoming entangled, Brooks and Clark were delivered with their cords only slightly twisted around one another. God was so gracious to us and them!

Unfortunately, we were not out of the woods yet. Clark would almost immediately be placed on a ventilator due to immature lungs where he would struggle for days. Clark’s blood gas levels became dangerously saturated with CO2. It made no sense to me, but his lungs were doing fine with oxygenating his blood, but were failing to remove the CO2 properly, creating a potentially deadly situation. The doctors and nurses at St. Vincent were doing all they could to get our little boy to breath properly, and get him out of danger. They were forced to switch him to a jet ventilator, but were still unable to stabilize his blood gas levels.

Since Jen was still hospitalized with high fever and blood loss after delivery, we were getting updates around the clock from the NICU. Jen was not able to go visit the boys yet because of her fever, but all of that changed around 12am that night. Our NP came in and informed us that she had cleared it with the NICU doctors to have Jen come up and see the boys. We didn’t realize it at the moment, but they wanted to make sure that Clark’s mommy got to see him alive, as they were beginning to wonder if he would make it through the night.

When we returned to Jens room that night we sent out an urgent prayer request to our church, and to our blog readers. We then went to prayer on his behalf. Our gracious God once again answered our prayers, sparing Clark’s life. Within an hour of Jen visiting the NICU, Clark’s CO2 levels finally began to drop. The moment our NP burst through the door with the news and a smile on her face still brings tears to my eyes when I think of it. My little Clark was going to be OK.

Clark had a few other scary bumps in the road before exiting the NICU 5 weeks later, but is now a very happy, healthy little boy. You never want to see your children suffer, but suffering brings an appreciation for how much you love them. I will always treasure Clark’s life because of those early trials.

Today, Clark’s personality is a wonderful daily reminder of God’s goodness. He and Henry seem to spar over who is going to command the most attention. I never thought I would use this word to describe my son, as I want them to be masculine men, but since the day he was born, Clark has always been a beautiful little boy. His smile always makes me laugh, and he loves to sit on his daddy’s lap, which makes me swell with pride.

Once again, I wish I could describe to all of you what Clark’s precious life means to me, it cannot be put to words. But, I love his crooked little smile, I love his deep brown eyes, I love the way he curls up in bed with Brooks each night, I love how he giggles out of control when I rub my nose in his neck, I love to watch him jump in his crib, I love his aggressive personality, I love his expression when I blow air in his face, I love to watch him play, and I love the fact that God let me keep my precious little boy, that I get to watch him grow instead of visiting his grave, and that I get to teach him to fish instead of dreaming about what it would be like to raise all four of my boys, and mostly, I love that I get to give glory to God for saving my little boy when doctors and nurses had tried everything to save him.

I love you Clark, and I am so thankful that I get to be your daddy.

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My Son Henry

My Son Isaac

18 Responses to “My Son Clark”

  1. The Adam Five
    May 20, 2008 at 1:41 pm #

    I have got to stop reading these at work. I always cry. God Blessed you 4 times. How lucky we are! How lucky the boys are to have such amazing parents!

  2. Williams' bunch
    May 20, 2008 at 2:29 pm #

    God is so good! We all rejoice with you in the lives of your four sweet boys! 🙂
    Isn’t is amazing watching your children grow…and seeing their personalities even at an early age. These stories are so sweet, Brad…you bring us to tears!

  3. Sarah
    May 20, 2008 at 2:47 pm #

    I love that you are writing about each one of your sons. and from their dad! You are bringing us to joyous tears over here. Your boys are such blessings! we too rejoice for each of their lives!

  4. Maggie
    May 20, 2008 at 4:27 pm #

    This brought tears to my eyes. God is so good.

  5. Elizabeth
    May 20, 2008 at 6:22 pm #

    What a beautiful and touching testament to God. and to Clark. All of your boys are precious and your faith is very uplifting and encouraging for me.

  6. Following HIM
    May 20, 2008 at 6:23 pm #

    What a beautiful story and dedication. This brings tears to my eyes and also allows me to see how good of a father you are! Keep it up!
    ~Elyse~

  7. kristin
    May 20, 2008 at 8:40 pm #

    Amazing post. Still crying even after reading it. God is so GOOD. Love reading about your precious family. Thank you for being such a wonderful Christian example to everyone out there. We need more people like you in this world. God has blessed those boys with such wonderful parents.

  8. Barbara Manatee
    May 20, 2008 at 8:54 pm #

    Both of you have such a way with words and such an amazing trust in God. It is no surprise that you two were blessed with such amazing boys and made it through this journey. Can’t wait to read your entry about Brooks!

  9. Jake and Taryn
    May 20, 2008 at 9:40 pm #

    How very SWEET!! You guys are such amazing parents…and you have such adorable boys!! God is so good! 🙂

  10. Suzanne
    May 20, 2008 at 9:44 pm #

    i cannot even imagine what you guys went through with mono-mono twins…ON TOP OF HAVING QUADS! i think very few people understand how frickin crazy scary that is…man, everytime i read about clark’s story, i cry. so thanks for the beautiful sob-fest! love you guys!

  11. Tony & Jaimie
    May 21, 2008 at 12:08 am #

    Another beautiful post. We love you guys and your boys even though we don’t get to see you all as often as we like. We must get together soon!

  12. MochaMomma
    May 21, 2008 at 12:47 am #

    ok, I see that Issac looks the most like Jenny, and Henry is just the spitting image of his daddy! The other boys look most like their daddy too. I’d like to know what you guys think about that? What does your family tell you?

  13. Cindy (and Brian)
    May 21, 2008 at 3:36 am #

    Beautiful post!

  14. The Murray Crew
    May 21, 2008 at 7:58 am #

    mochamomma,

    Believe it or not, most people seem to think that Henry looks the most like his momma, and the other boys tend to look more like me. Jen and I cannot see it very well ourselves.

    But, the boys definetly got some genes from Jen. I dont see her in the boys nearly as much as I see our nephews on her side of the family.(clearly not from me) Henry and Isaac have always reminded me of them, and last night, after Clark got his hair cut, he looked just like my oldest nephew.

  15. ~Amber~
    May 21, 2008 at 11:31 am #

    Oh you guys, I can’t quit crying reading this post. Praise God. He is so good. I am so glad you two have those 4 beautiful boys, whom I love to read about. Bless all 6 of you!!!!!!!!

  16. loren
    May 21, 2008 at 4:40 pm #

    Hahaha! I actually see the resemblance!

  17. debi9kids
    May 21, 2008 at 5:22 pm #

    Once again, such a beautiful post!
    Thank you for opening up to much to all of us and giving us a view of your boys that we would otherwise never experience.
    🙂 Debi

  18. Lindsay
    May 22, 2008 at 2:45 pm #

    I can’t believe that Clark one American Idol last night! Thanks for the comment on the blog today 🙂

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